Wednesday, November 01, 2006
always blogging aft Pasta~
its' oways a.m when i blogg~
oways a scolding that end my day~
when i was abt to slp with tears...
Pasta016, V.touching, sweet & sad..
Iv, u're right.. i cried~ frm the first scene to d last..
if women are made of water,
den i might be the one overdone.. my head, my hand, my leg, my boobs, my tummy are full of water..
i'm oways sad and acting a strong side of me when i'm outside.. i was nvr happy when i was alone..
i cant tink of anything tat cheer me up..
When i told iv&maggie abt tat 7words..
i reali mean it.. tats my life..
no aim, no nothing, no actual goals..
i was a walking dead person..
i went ard like a clown..
i was drunk even i dint drink..
julz asked if i suffering from depression..
i dont tink so.. but mayb soon..
What is the purpose for me to stay on..
What shld i do when i grow older?
Can i stop wadeva i'm doing now n let go my hand?
my mind is onli full of shit tinking..
negative n useles.. i knew it.. but i juz cant stop tinking.
Jezz saided she feel like she's so far away frm me after
reading my blog.. even thou she knew me for like 5yrs?
Yes... no one truly understand me..
If u view all the testis in frenster written to me..
u might have different tinking on me~
but tats not the inner me~..
i'm live in yesterday not tommorrow..
i dont know when i can make it..
Time dont wait...
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Happy Birthday to my mum~
Happy Birthday to LY
Happy Birthday to one lost fren too.
WHO coloured my life @
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