Tuesday, January 31, 2006
i'm fuckin tired now.. but y cant i slp.. = =still gt to mit maggie at 4 leh..dying soon sia.. keep on slpless..falling sick le.. sore throat, flu..new yr holidays are goona finish..thou CNY gt 15 days..y cant we have 15days of holiday? lolx..tat cool man.. hahai wana slp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, January 30, 2006
its not a new beginning for me when i discovered tat my comp actuali spoilt when i nid it the moz.. i think i have get use to cry, luff, sing, game wid my comp too much le.. til i tink i cant actuali live wid out it.. now gotta use my bro de.. muz wait til he's slping den i can use..bWg.. haiz.. i been not good since 2006 start.. dreams shattered due to family probs..sorry my dearest sis ..i let u down.. but out of no other way.. i muz wrk to help dis family..wAtch [I not stupid Too] .. i like the movie.. coz it swept my tears and my $$ = =crying seems the onli thing i can do now ..i m in a mess of myself..forcing myself to smile even i was really down..i did not tel anyone.. coz i reali feel a failure inside my heart...i din tel ivy, maggie, karen.. not even my darling sista..i felt so useless of me..wad shld i do to make myself happier?shld go wrk liao.. STOP UR DREAM when u are not slping..i m reali trying to forget wat big big dream i have in my mind..by making myself crazy.. luff non stop.. craps..but at the end of the day.. tears still swept by.. when is dis so?i suffering slpless nite.. i making hell out of myself..sometime, we say.. when things dont belong to you .. juz let go..but we haven even try to reach it.. we gootta giv up?ya i can say dis.. but when theres' too mani reasons.. u got no choice.. but resign to fate...FAMILY = [F]ather [a]nd [M]other [I] [L]ove [Y]ou
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