i juz wan a world of myself

2007-05-03T03:47:00.000+08:00

its has been a long long time i had such feeling..

i hope it wun last n we can remain frens..

i wish i could feel nthin.. bt my heart indeed gain abit of weight..

i feel its getting heavier n heavier..

i wanted to stop the tots n missing..

bt i couldnt..

mayb too long theres no one who gave me such sweetness..

mayb i been alone for too long..

mayb there someting in u .. tat makes me feel so "him"

mayb i need someone for a hug onli..

mayb i reali feel something for u ..

but i cant decide whether u are an angel or a devil to be ard with

but there something we still cant let go

but we arent reali falling for each other rite?

but dis might be an one-sided love?

but forsure i may get hurt once again which i cant afford to

but if there no chances.. why tk the risk to try?

but whatif i miss the chance?

theres too mani buts to mayb..

im reali confused..

isit love or lust~

2007-02-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

this entry is for all my frens who cherish the kind of frenship

between u guys n me..

first i apologised tat if u guys think tat i nvr reali put u ppl in my heart... OR never remember wadever u told me~ i did tk notice abt wad u all tokin abt at tat MOMENT.. but if u wan me to repeat wad have u said after a few days.. its v.hard for me.. as my memory card gt limited space..sometimes i even forget wad i wan to do myself.. so i can onli say sorry~~~ i dint wan to forget abt it purposely..=X

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my mind is full of u after i saw ur pics

i miss the old days we were so funn~

2007-02-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

i realised tat it been a damn long time i last blog...

well.. wasnt reali SO SO SO bz..

still trying to find a target in my life...

last mth gt FLH event in sg..was quite a disaster to me..

make me feel 50% off frm FLH..

Bt still YYL.. coz he's cute and i like tat tone of him..lolx

he wasnt the one who caught my mind tru out..

SY was here too.. last time saw him is yan zi concert...

feel so awkard when we both regonised each other..

was v.happy tat he still remember me..

same smile but different position..

he's no longer the one singing to me on stage..

i wasnt the lil ger who stand down there n listen..

he was still on the stage.. doing wad he used to do..

A dancer.. the job i wanted the mos..

the dream of mine tat will nvr be fufil..

i juz hope tat he will be happier and had put the past down..

i wanted to be his fren.. bt whenever i get close to him..

i'll get quiet down..let the rest do the tokin..

Get to wrk b4 CNY.. and was at the place whr i first saw him..

began to tink alot abt the past..when i was still young n naive..

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PICS!!!!!!

Me aft visitin my auntie = =

& Little nephew :) he's cute

I tink she;s the cutest ^^

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I wasnt the greatest.. i wasnt as strong as wad i look like.. i nid the care.. i nid the love.. dun tink i m independent.. coz i m NOT!

2007-01-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

wake up and had a gd cry dis 1pm... watched dis korean movie on chn62.. passions abt dancing.. and abt the rythm in d heart.. and a wonderful love story behind it.. tears-ed non stop.. wondering my past life never cry b4? so tat why dis time i cry amoz everyday? haha..

was amoz slacking thru out today.. waited for kone online event..

it sux~ the webcam is slow.. the chats are nt clear.. etc..

listen also pekcek = =.. i'm so bored at home.. hais..

no one is free to go out wid me.. even free also muz pay a price..

wtf.. who is the real.. who is the fake.. i'm alr lazy to go think abt it..

2007-01-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

watching e zuo ju now.. using the new lappy to blog.. thou nt first time use lappy to blog.. feel so weird after all.. haha,, xiang qin saw zhi shu gg to pei zi yu hse.. she was heartbroken..

juz like hw i feel last nite when i noe tat u are actuali facing some problems now.. i heard ur sniffing sound.. i noe u are having a bad time... bt wad can i do.. i can onli act like i dont reali care bt wanted to share wid u ...thou we are alr the past.. bt i reali still hope tat u are doing fine.. widout worries..its alr been some time i let go n cry loudly... as long as u are happi.. i will be happi too..feeling so emo... yeas .. i feel the kind of feeling den amos cant breath.. amoz drown in tears..

2007-01-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

yo.. its been a long long time since my last blog..

well... i was working for the past dec..

had a v. bz last month of 2006..

to me.. i dont knw is it a relief or another yr of worries n fear..

fear of my not so bright future..

went to watch death note 2 juz nw wid ivy..again yy put aeroplanes again(all the time)

its was awesome.. bt abit pity is tat L n Light die in the end..

quite sad coz L is so cute.. hahahah...

2006-12-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

whooo.. its was v.tired for the past few days..

was wrking again at gift a name= =

temp for dis coming xmas festival..

i use to love xmas.. bt i guess i hated all the seasons in 2006..

i hate the days i had in 2006...

i gotta act like SO cheerful towards all customers..

serve em like an angel.. with all the fake words and smiles..

i dont feel as happy.. all i feel is tired..

slogging myself for money..

how pathetic it can be..

2006-12-03T01:44:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog last few days agao~ but blogger is always hanging = =.
Yes, i finally gotta my 7390~
its damn beautiful for the pink and white
and damn cool for the bronze and black~
i gotta the pink with white.. which i wanted it long ago.. finally launch~
it was my first time so harsh on buying something..(isnt?) coz for the past me, i might consider for a few months den buy...
but dis time i bought it without too much tinking = =.. and i feel the guilt more den i expected to feel.. coz my mum paided dis for me.. i told myself to pay her back if possible after i work in dec.. feelin quite stress recently.. the stress come from my frens.. i might not be up to the standard so i suggested to swap place with em.. as they are more thoughtful and ambitious towards dis whole ting..
A alr get the proposal done~ all i need is to form em into proper sentences tat make senses;whereby B is always asking me for more details on wad i did.. somehow i tink i shld step down and let my hands off.. its was stressful enough for me and i cant even reject~
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Can Love and friendship both survive at the same time?
the ans is : NO!
Can my fren get along with my guy?
the ans is : Dont Try! u never know wad ur fren or ur guy is tinking abt!
It was obvious enough when a ger gets into a relationship, she tends to forget about her frens n family.. not 100% but at least 80%. When u ask her out, she might have tons of excuses to keep herself free in order to accompany her guy ; as well as preventing any quarrels~ you wont feel lonely as he's there to accompany u all day long.. you dont need frens..
all u need is him~ for now i rejected dis kind of feeling as i realised i had too little frens.. i tend to stop myself from falling in love or anything to do with tat.. i tot my heart is alr as calm as water.. but whenever we tok abt him.. i still feel the heartbeats~ its been yrs~i did not tok to him , i did nt see him, i did nt even had anynews abt him.. but y i still feel so.. i reali dont know.....
P.S: all the words above are my experiences~if its the same as u, i not saying about u ~ its all so coincidental... orelse u feel guilt for neglecting ur fren juz like me in the past~

2006-11-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

brooding over myself for no one is going to accompany to the IT Fair..
y m i so sadis? freaking angry with myself..
y i gt so few frens..
or y is my frens so bz?
can blame who?
can onli blame myself for not being independent!
shit myself!

2006-11-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

1. Starter: Escagoes~
2. Me with tat slizzing steak
3. Tenderloin Slizzing Steak
4. Black Pepper Steak
5. Black Pepper Chicken

2006-11-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

1. Curry Chicken

2. FooYong Egg

3. Sweet-n-Sour Pork

4. Mix Veges

2006-11-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

1. Bah Kut Teh

2. YouTiao

2006-11-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

1. T.G.I.Fridays
2. Iv's IceCream Sandwiches
3. 3 In 1
4. Cheesy~
5. Me with my Cranberry Frizz
6. Mushroom Soup
7. Forgotten
8. Dajie's Strawberry Surpise

2006-11-26T20:44:00.001+08:00

gonna end my day or shld i say trip coz we will be leaving tmr at 3pm..

we wake up quite earli.. abt 9plus..

walk out to see if we can have subway breakfast..

bt it wasnt open and sunday dont have breakfast..

dajie suggested tat we can go to the hotel lounge and have d america breakfast..

not too bad..jjus that the varierty is not many..

aft makan, we went back to our room and prepare..

mayb too tired and wake up too earli..

iv n i fall aslp when dajie was bathing... haha

we went SUNGEI WANG.. full of energy..

Dajie's fren n family came to mit us out for lunch awhile..

den we went shopping..

BIG SHOPPING!!!!!!!! thou i did boought stuffs too the last 2 days..

we bought even more today..

let me tink ar..

Dis trip i bought a bag, a bracelet, a tee, some masks, 2 shorts..

not alot, and some stuffs for my parents..etc..

at nite we had western cusine at dis restoran name : THE SHIP..

onli can say is v.NICE! the escargoes are DAMn nice~~~~~

and the steak too... onli can say dajie is reali cool to knoow all dis places with good food~

thx dajie for everything.. and we love it... ^^

2006-11-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

gonna end my day or shld i say trip coz we will be leaving tmr at 3pm..

we wake up quite earli.. abt 9plus..

walk out to see if we can have subway breakfast..

bt it wasnt open and sunday dont have breakfast..

dajie suggested tat we can go to the hotel lounge and have d america breakfast..

not too bad..jjus that the varierty is not many..

aft makan, we went back to our room and prepare..

mayb too tired and wake up too earli..

iv n i fall aslp when dajie was bathing... haha

we went SUNGEI WANG.. full of energy..

Dajie's fren n family came to mit us out for lunch awhile..

den we went shopping..

BIG SHOPPING!!!!!!!! thou i did boought stuffs too the last 2 days..

we bought even more today..

let me tink ar..

Dis trip i bought a bag, a bracelet, a tee, some masks, 2 shorts..

not alot, and some stuffs for my parents..etc..

at nite we had western cusine at dis restoran name : THE SHIP..

onli can say is v.NICE! the escargoes are DAMn nice~~~~~

and the steak too... onli can say dajie is reali cool to knoow all dis places with good food~

thx dajie for everything.. and we love it... ^^

2006-11-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

yes~~ ending my day inK.Lumpur ...

had bah kut teh as my breakfast dis morning..

so regret to ordder tat kai xim.. the salt is like FREE!

salty like sea water = =OMG

den we went MEGA MALL.. it was big..

bought 2 shorts at RM40.. cheap huh..
den we went bk n rest in hotel awhile..

we shopped alot of kids baby shops.. i was abit bored as i dun have any babies at home

and i reali duno wad to buy for my family members...

i hardly bought anything for myself too..

nthin is cute or can say is i cant find the stuffs i wan lo..

haha...abit headache now.. duno wad to type.. see

IV aka Chen Mei Xian's blog for more details...=)

2006-11-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

yes.. i've reached K.Lumpur last nite..abt 4plus = = its a rocky route dis time.. and it suxs~ esp i was nt feeling well.. and i din slp at all~~ despite of nt feelin well and the stars above caught my eyes.. i was tokin to the stars telling em i cant slp.. going crazy soon.. dis morning slept awhile, wake up pei dajie walk to work.. had mac as breakfast.. gone back n slp.. the housekeeping lady feel so sorry for disturbing us twice.. hahha.. abt 1pius we wake up..wash up and we went puturaya to buy bus tix for monday.. the weather is VERY HHOOTT..we bought our tics at grassland and we decided to walk to sUNGEI WANG.. wad a crazy act..iv say juz walk straight.. everywhr also walk straight, walk wrong way also walk straight.. she gt no sense of whr SUNGEI WANG nor the hotel is.. amos bash her up on the sts.. and she make me roar quite a lot of times~~ in the end..we din make it to SUNGEI WANG..we went LOT 10 as we were too hungry = = ... and we are oways U-TURN-ing! so mad = =.. shall rmb iv for all dis adventures~ we went back to the hotel finally.. after my correct sense of directions.... meet up with dajie in the hotel room.. and we went FRIDAY!!! OMG.. miss ghost abit ar.. gastric nt strong enough.. bt i still njoy the food.. aft tt we went KLCC.. quite leisure.. fun fun fun.. twin tower nite view is nice ^^..

P.S: i miss my mum, my bro n my dad~~~

2006-11-22T05:20:00.000+08:00

eya~ maybe my days are near = =
recently start to feel headache at 9+ 10..
den eat panadol and zzz...
den wake up at abt 5 hrs later..(3AM)
i tot i can slp till tmr morning =(
my health alr chu patterns le..
first is insomnia nw is slp n wake up n headache again..
Went HG mall last 2 days~
First is me n mag go for dinner as i pass her smth..
den we saw ah bao.. we decided to shout him out..
but less den 5 mins we regretted~(jus joking)
coz he sit down and tok his sense out~
he was 1 tat i will remember as part of my sec sch life..
den when i went in to UFM, he was still a superior to me fated or not~ he also stay in hG...lols~
but i will always listen to him carefully~
coz thou abit naggy~he tok sense~
and let me know tat i wasnt the only one is who had blur vision abt future.. i took his words seriously..
and i'm above water~
mayb i will really go take the course..
i might nid something i dont like rite now..
and push myself to things i dont like..
being fake and cheap~
hais.. as i grow.. visions of future are getting blurred~
who say zhou chu qu jiu you lu ~
when i cant even walk out~
den meet Karen on monday~
she was kind enough to lend me her camera~
thank you~ thou u might be bz to view my blog =P
will be going over to K.L to find da jie on thurs nite..
looking forward~ =)

Some pics from Yy's AMEX D&D

OYH, thx for the invite tat nite..

it was funn and noisy with u ard..

we wasnt wrong to get u as the crowd management last time.. wwahaha~

Vomiting now~ how to go kl like dis~ arghs...

2006-11-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

JAY HOT NEW ABLUM!!!!!

BA BA GENG TIAN QU!

Sounds familiar?

YES u nvr see wrongly.. its some stupid privated disc~

With daniel's song inside and as the FIrST zu da sia..

amos faint when i saw it...

HuaYang Start le~Watched the first esp today.. it was damn funni n nice..i started to fall in love with chun at the first scene = =..and tat DOG, YuCiLang.. so ke ai lor..

2006-11-14T04:42:00.000+08:00

No more aft pasta blogging..

but anyhow to blog..

Recently watchin Fei Tian Xi Shi(In Love With...)

its a hk drama abt a fat ger~and a guy who dislike ges with fats~

nice drama.. and i like the song..

Will be gg KL nxt week..

I also duno wad leads me there.. maybe i wana run..

lolx.. ohya.. i have a v.big ulcer on my lower lip..

and i muz be crazy tat i put salt on it.. ALOT!

and when the salt melted i put again..

Jumping up n down with tears..

but its less painful now..

mayb there muz be a v. tearful treatment before u fully heal?

den wheres the treatment for e scar in my heart..?sobz

2006-11-08T01:32:00.000+08:00

Last time to blog aft watching pasta..

Happy Ending again and sweet...

i did cry and luff at the same time..

isnt dis the affection they want? =)

No G.d in the last esp.. = =

onli saw ah wen in some scenes ..

Watching Xing Ping Guo now~

its kind of not v.nice~

if's its not for XLY..Dis PIGHEAD!

Btw.. ChengXiaoShi gt some patterns the same as me!

Karen say wan! is AlWAYS fall down n blur!

!@#$%^&*

How i wish i have tat powerful smile and determination like her too~...

Yesh.. i wanted to run~

7 Words + Lost + Empty IS MY LIFE!

they oways ask.. y i dont wan find a job?

BECOZ i dont know wad to do..

i dont know wad i like..

i dont know wad i can do!

And i also feel embrassed for taking your $$..

I'm waiting for the day where i can STOP asking u for $$..

Seriously.......

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2006-11-05T04:32:00.000+08:00

Yes..

Promise OYH tat will let her see how this ppl look like~

-BBT- i will catch the show amos everyday..

the funny and spastics actions.. haha

From Left: AoQuan,Xiao Wei, Xiao Jie.

All bboys from Black Angle..

this crew is nt strange to me..

as maggie gt a fren in tat crew too~

so i heard of em long ago..

In BBT, more shock is.. my long lost aio fren..

Adam is inside too..

and popular.. yeah~ he's cute too..

I saw his jiazu by some singaporean.. cool~

Guess alot of ppl watch BBT too huh~ yeah..

cute guys deserve alot of attentions~hahaha~

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2006-11-01T04:30:00.000+08:00

always blogging aft Pasta~

its' oways a.m when i blogg~

oways a scolding that end my day~

when i was abt to slp with tears...

Pasta016, V.touching, sweet & sad..

Iv, u're right.. i cried~ frm the first scene to d last..

if women are made of water,

den i might be the one overdone.. my head, my hand, my leg, my boobs, my tummy are full of water..

i'm oways sad and acting a strong side of me when i'm outside.. i was nvr happy when i was alone..

i cant tink of anything tat cheer me up..

When i told iv&maggie abt tat 7words..

i reali mean it.. tats my life..

no aim, no nothing, no actual goals..

i was a walking dead person..

i went ard like a clown..

i was drunk even i dint drink..

julz asked if i suffering from depression..

i dont tink so.. but mayb soon..

What is the purpose for me to stay on..

What shld i do when i grow older?

Can i stop wadeva i'm doing now n let go my hand?

my mind is onli full of shit tinking..

negative n useles.. i knew it.. but i juz cant stop tinking.

Jezz saided she feel like she's so far away frm me after

reading my blog.. even thou she knew me for like 5yrs?

Yes... no one truly understand me..

If u view all the testis in frenster written to me..

u might have different tinking on me~

but tats not the inner me~..

i'm live in yesterday not tommorrow..

i dont know when i can make it..

Time dont wait...

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Happy Birthday to my mum~

Happy Birthday to LY

Happy Birthday to one lost fren too.

2006-10-30T02:17:00.000+08:00

here to blog~ yawns~

new song new song~

KONE live version ( Hu Si Luan Xiang)

without IVY~ onli KONE voice~

its damn funni can~

Liyang is getting popular~ isit bcox of his new hair?

last time no alot wan leh~

nvm~ it smth gd for him~

i miss tat birddy~~~~~~~~~~~

2006-10-26T16:03:00.000+08:00

i wana blog dis last nite can~

den suddenly blogger down~

when i finish writing~ !@#$%^&*

Well, wad i say was:

U see~ He slp lidat!! so ke lian lors..

but quite beautiful too rite..

They must be damn bz.. so gotta slp anywhr..

arhs~ forget wad i say le~

2006-10-23T04:08:00.000+08:00

i'm abt to slp alr~ but den hor..

an old singer's song caught my attention.

he's singing to his wife.. damn touching..

he even cry himself.. haha.. of coz.. i cried again = =''' how stupid.. watchin another new drama..

to me is new.. to others quite long ago..

it says something in to show and make me burst into tears and loud crying..

Maybe if i have not given her all my love..

Maybe if she's not the one for me

Maybe if i were to meet u earlier den her..

I might accept and fall in love with you...

So wad abt u were with me and u met her later?

so u will dump me and be with her?

ahhahaha.. my stupid tinking again..

the drama is nice...

and i onli cry when they said abt dreams n future..

someting i lost..

i wun smile when the happy scenes is there..

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Went out to celebrate Karen's bday today..

QPS say wan send me pics ask me wait..

till she offline lor..

~!@#$%^&*

shall upload the pics one day..

quite fun today..

hopes karen enjoy toos~

제이스린 FIGHTING!

2006-10-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

My Girl =)

GrapePlantation Tat Guy..(this show gt alot of names)

Well.. the wonderful ending~ sweet..

2006-10-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging quite some time?

yeah~ here we go.. a long and full of ups n downs..

Been staying at home since last saturday..

its quite unbelievable..

even myself couldnt believe it..

I spent-ed 3 days in finishing watch (My Girl)

Nice drama.. waste a lot of tears too..

Its oways happy ending..

Even thou Dis kind of drama oways have the same beginning and the same ending.. everyone enjoy isnt it?

By watching , it onli reminds me of how lonely i m..=)

Monday- I did went out..

Went Hougang Mall With maggie and went home ard 8plus..

Tuesday - I stayed at home..Watching Vineyard Tat Man..

Its by the same ger from Goong.. its funni~ and cute..

totally different from goong..yia da~

sound so peaceful and quiet live i had..

Wed - Went out n eat with family

Thurs - Went Bugis With Maggie..

Fri - Stay At home.. Order my Fave.. PIZZA!

I duno wad job i shld find and wad shld i do..

frankly say.. i alr told myself to give up..

give up the most fav thing in my mind..

i told myself nt to tink abt it anymore..

So.. living to me now is totally empty..

i dono how to go face the rest..

rejected all sorts of stuffs..

hiding at home=)

forced to smilE?

Hmmm actuali supposed to go KL for fun and relaxation in earli nov..

looks like gonna cancel.. i suggested plus Genting ..

everyone is fine with it at first.. and i was quite happy~

i nvr been there b4.. v. qi dai.. waiting for tat day..

BUT things ALWAYS dont go my way...

Due to some reasons..Dajie Cant make it..

when da jie cant make it.. Yy also wont go~

(they have their sorts of reasons)

Now... Maggie hinted me not to go Genting as she scares lee hom or whoeva wadeva goes and we gotta go again..

quite sad n disappointed.. makes me feel like nt gg~

and they might nt get offs again.. so i make the request of cancel it..

since everyone is like so bz and not fine with it.. i dont like if i wanted to go and act stubborn~ some ppl will say me again.. a

igo its my character.. so i saided cancel first.. a

s in i said-ed I DUN WANT TO GO! quite disappointing..

as i di dai it quite long.. wadeva.. continue my show~

And..Happy Birthday to Jezz & Zhi Wen..

i decided i might not meet up u gers recently...

And .. KONE 3RD ABLUM released TODAY! ~YAI DA~

2006-10-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

Have a pleasant weekend last week with Karen, Yy, Ivy n Mag..
the 5 mad womans decided to have a belated mooncake festival..
went over to east coast and eat carrot cakE?!
and use the sample cups as if like drinkin tea~mados~
played n took 200 over pics on the beach~
ther's drawings on the sand ther's spastic photographs..
but.. they make the day.. one of the day i smile the mos dis few weeks~

Me & YY.. but i duno y she put her finger there.. dont look porny or sexy..so weird and abit disgusting~ hahaha

Me draw dis KONE! i miss liyang n i love his new hair~

A v. funny pose~

JJH on the beach~

WAHAHA~

LALALA.. tat all folks~

2006-10-06T05:17:00.001+08:00

actuali dun wana blog.. abt to slp le..

theres still so mani things in my mind..

guess they will nv be gone..

jus now send karen the song tat weibo and su rei sing..

its alot of my feellin..

since when i stop holding ur hands n making me slp..

since when i stop sayin i'home and headed straight to my room..

since when u stopping listening me saying hw stress i m in school..

since when we dont even see each other amos the whole day..

since when i stoppin callin u n say i love u ..

since when i told myself its time to cling on to ownself..

since when i totally wanted love so badly..

since when i amos cry everyday becoz i hatred the life i leading now

since when i feel like ending wadever i have n throw myself into deep slp..

since when i truefully smile...

cant slp..thou i'm really tired..

2006-10-04T03:34:00.000+08:00

Goong Fever still on~

been blind all along i guess...

hahas~ bought 3 posters and a stickers~

my life surrounded by goong.. can say by JJH..

oh man~

To YY : i have nth to update lehs..

unless u wan me to write abt u ...

giving me aeroplanes n etc.. wahaha

Its oways sad to see my prince cry =(

2006-09-28T13:14:00.000+08:00

The Dj With Us~

I never make up =x

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Went to see eG on tues~

3ppl.. abit weird~

Ivy was in the craze of Ahdi.. hmmm= =

my eyes still onli on shuwei~ahaha...

nth to blog abt... will post others pics when i feel to do so..

2006-09-26T02:58:00.000+08:00

its was a v.moody day for me today..

wake up in the morning go see doc..

aft tat come back n slp again~

suppose to mit robbin at 3plus~

but couldnt wake up...wake up at 5plus..

feeling so sad n so uneasy~

cook maggie mee..

its been quite sometime i ate maggie mee

and stay at home..

last since i come back from taiwan..

i was nv at home~...

i juz cant let this kind of feeling stop..

i told myself i muz look forward to every tomorrow..

but i cant even bring myself ahead..

all i'm doing is .. i make myself tinkin of the past..

feel the past and dare not to step forward..

tat v.coward of me~

i feel like a clown when i'm outside..

tat partly y i wana stay at home..

coz i can show the inner me..

everyone muz be wondering wats happening to me?

NOTHING.. juz feel like crying and stay at home...

mayb if i shut my hp off.. u all can no nid worri..

i'm at home =)

Yy ask me if i wana see xin li yi sheng... =x

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Today have Fei Fei & Tank @ Kang Xi Lai Le..

Topic is abt Top5 Heartbroken love story..

Tank get first..(his story is reali damn sad)

Drop my tears again....................

2006-09-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

blogging again~

while tv showing full housE~

i cleaning my room once again~

seldom ppl noe tat i do tat whenever i feel uncomfortable or sad or moody..

my room is v.untidy and packed with alot of things

dusty.. make me sneezing like hell~

den watchin full house~ cry~

make me look so ugli i guesS~

i total packed 4-5bags of unwanted things~

oways think i might felt much better aft throwing things away~

i tink i'm running away from the facts~

feel like quarrentine myself..

ppl might do smething else to run away fro facts and etc..

i make use of watching serials to make myself cry~

coz i find out tat the way for me to drop my tears with a valid reasons..

if not i scare my mum will ask alot~

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today we went to the dj course...

the dj is v.shuai~ his voice v.nice~ his skills~ awesome~

but if u nv pay 100% attention to the translator~

u wun understand tat english = =

haha~ anytthing i'll add on ltr.. going downstair to pei alvin~

2006-09-24T06:20:00.000+08:00

The four mains from the serial~

The 2 very main in the show~ cutes

Arghs~!!! simply love his smile ^^

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Actuali wana blog tgt wan~

but den dun seem sucessful~so do another post lor~

2006-09-24T05:58:00.000+08:00

Here to blog~~5.53am!!!

i finish watchin Gong-Ye Man Wang Fei..

Thruhalf, yy called~ i was crying like hell~

haha..eyes as swollen as the lead..

Normally, sure is happy ending wan~

actuali amoz all serials are having the same ending~

Ji Hoon is v.cute in the Special~ he onli look stern n cool okay~ like-d him more n more~ the NGs of his~ stop my tears~ v.funnni v.patterns~

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Saturday : Mabel's Bday Gathering..=)

Its FUNNNN....

We mit up first in the train den mit ivy @ orchard..

den we wana go fareast walk shop walk shop...

we saw YY and her sisters~ so Qiao aR~.. haha..

den aft tat we went to shop lor~...

Den we went to mit maggie and had our dinner at pepper lunch~ bcoz we went to toilet ( abit long)

den our food was alr cooked by the servers there..haha

Yummy~ we shall go eat at hg mall again ok!!!!

aft tat we went chinatown~ coz fireworks.. duno who say is bian pao~ make me so excited at first...

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Recently..damn lost again~

no work.. no nthing..

Everything is like a dream~

the dream of being someone..

someone-else perhaps..

and i track back my older blog~

i saw the past me~

i told yy~ hw i wish i can go back to the past..

and i found out there's no improvement of laughter at all...

2006-09-21T03:00:00.000+08:00

Here to blog again ^^

Hmmm~ a short break from

Gong-Wo de ye man wang fei

Its v. nice~ cry as usual~

Hmm~actuali nv watch so fast de~

at first abt boring~ but til now i watch 21esp..

within 3days~ hope i can finish the show asap~

i still gt alot of shows waiting leh~ hahaha...

BBT lastest is Monkey is leaving BBT coz he gg japan to study~ He's one of the few i like~ cant see him anymore abit sianz =(

Shall Continue my show? tmr gt trainning~

my planns was actuali dun slp~ watch den go dance

but it was like i nv slp well last nite too..

slept at 5am~ wake up at 8+~coz Rob Called~

den watch show~ go out with my parents~

den i bought-ed a pair of shoes which i oways wan when i was still working at tampines mall ^^

so happy~ den v.tired~ i fall aslp in the bus~ its quite crowded coz 6plus tat time~den i tink i noe how ugli i look when i was falling aslp~ hahaha.. wonder when anyone will love a ugli n fat ger like me~ not gentle not cute not thoughtful enough=(

abit siao le~ everytime aft watchin serials~ my lao mao bing come again~ wan to say abt myself...

wana SHOUT out : I DUN LIKE MYSELF!!!

how m i gg to love anyone with dis? =X

2006-09-19T05:00:00.000+08:00

Here to blog aft watching Wei Xiao Pasta 10..

Argh~I jus told Ivy actuali Rita is okay in the show~

she began to chu pattern liao le~ At first say wan to patch back with ah zhe~ den becoz ah zhe rejected~

she become sad and kena find troubles by wei zai( by Darren) den he qun protected her and send her to hospital~ DEN HOR!!! She actuali say : if there's no Cheng Xiao Shi.. they can actuali go back to their past~

she's reali no prawn, ikan bills also nice~ WTF

Actuali all is are yu gao for Pasta11

Its getting more n more sad~ i cried more n more~

Sad for Xiao Shi and Happy for her~All the tears i used up for this show~ ALOT! reali like ZDL~ hope he wun ans RITA a YES~ but i saw xiao shi crying leh~

reali wan to watch pasta 11 lars~

Recently also into BBT(BangBangTang)

Alot of yandaos~ Cool Cute all have~ haha

no chance to know them lehs~

I saw Ruby pic with one of my fav~ so !@#$%^&

ROARRR~ hahaha...

Shall Slp~ 5.03AM ^^

2006-09-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

back to blog again~

-10/09/06-

KENNETH birthday~

ant get to celebrate with him~

but getted a bday gift for him~

and the bad news is~

yuanqi concert is postponed~

tat F***ing ANNIE MUSIC SCHOOL~

no use dun help ppl do concert~~

dun have the bugets to ask big shots come~

also no nid to hurt small kas heart ~arghs~

-12/09/06-

is guan ding bday~~

onli at msn pin him tat 4 words onli~

monday is maybel bday~

recently alot ppl bdays hors~ haha~

or wan say i gt alot of frens? aha ~

i miss him~

i dont miss him~

i miss him ~

i dont miss him~

I MISS HIM!

abit crazi le~

i miss all the time tat i spended tgt with him~

-14/09/06-

i went to the music sch of yy (last time?) to see

MR Q n Wan Mei perform..(i dont know their names)

but both are gers alrite~

wonder how come i will go see gers~

hmmm~commentted AVERAGE for em lor (being kind)

they might get a FAIR if they improve on their..

So call make up,

So call Attire = =,

So Call umbrella of no usE and throw on the floor at 1 verse

So Call Unzip as if she's gonna strip

So Call change the way they walk~

So call the patterns are all REPEATED~

guess all noe how GOOD-ED it is~

simple song like i performed b4 when i was 14~

Hmmm~ cant say v. lousy~ but its lousy aft all~

at least thers improve aft yyYYYyYYyyEEaAAaHHh~

TO YY : U will sure say me for being bad~

coz i say ur beloved frens~

i'm jus being FRANK~ i dun wana hidE~

if i'm given a chancE~

i will sure say RIGHT in front of their face!

it wasnt time wasting tat nite~

coz i see the Fakes Side-eD of Human~

Tat smthin GREAT~....

-15/09/06-

i Put-ed maggie aeroplane~

coz my darling commpy and karens' cant match~

they start to riot when both meet~

delay quite long = =

Sorrie MAGGIE~

i noe the feeling of being put-ed aeroplane~

coz YY oways giv me free aeroplanes~wahahahahaha

Ohya~ Fei Fei released album today~

-16/09/06-

Today, Sweety event~ no comments ...

It's like SHIT =)

And i went over to Calvin's bday~

everything is over

but is funnnn~

i love fighting with bebe~ she's oways make my day~

i hide-ed her toy and she start to SCREAM~ wahah

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its going to be like dis~

i'll try if i can type almos everyday~

den post like a week~?

2006-09-07T03:20:00.000+08:00

oh man~ like so long nv come n blog~

sorri to all those who likes to giv it a peep here~ haha

hmmm... i was bz fro 28/8 - 3/9

coz i help out at serene's promo~

and i gt a great show up at 31/8~

finally came to a comma~

y comma~ coz it will nv have a full stop~

we still gt pracs all the time =)

if i have the time i sure will go of coz~

4/09 is damn fucking unlucky for mE~ trip n fall~

dun wan blog too much~ too ugli le~

juz hope tat dun leave scars on my beautiful legs~

hehe~ receently keep on gg JB~

like so near n yet so faR?

that all abt wad i m doing for tat week~

i oways feel like blogging aft i watch pasta~

juz cant tk myself off tat show~

i wana be like her~

so simple.

so pure.

so stupid.

so clumsy.

coz i noe i m nt simple, nt pure, nt stupid...

coz i tink it make life more easy?

somehow~ i look like her~

so clumsy and oways kena bullieD(lasttime?)

and wun utter anything to close fren or family~

keep em to myself..

hahas~ i wana be like her~

coz ther's a [shao ba xing] to be with her all the time~

falling for him le lar~ i told others nt to fall for him~

in the end i like him so madly~ arghs~

ZDL~ how can u lidat sia~ dont keep on smile can~

ahaha~

fei fei~ wahaha~ put for funn wan~

2006-08-25T01:50:00.000+08:00

Ytd tat Po like nv reali write anything~

so decided to write another wan~

Hmmm recently Jace is bz with her upcoming performance~

in her former sch~ thou alot of things get tougher~

but she nv giv up~maybe amos?

there might be tears there might be disagrees at times~

but finally~she manage to move alot further~

tats never enough~

muz go on n on n on~

Dancing is always something i love n i wan to do~

thou theres no much chances for mE~ hais~

everytime i talk abt dis~ i feel heartbroken~

tats more heartbroken den i lost any relationship~

i juz feel tat i lost my dream~

i simpli envy the others who can do wadeva they like~

hmmm~=)

recently keep on train n train~ the whole body aches~

hahas~i still lazi to blog abt BlueJ thingy~

nothing alot to blog also~ not like karen~

juz watched WeiXiaoPasta~ its sweet~ too sweeT~

sweet til i tink i v.jealous bah~hahas~

guanding gt a damn cute scene~

its getting more n more nice~

someone say i lack of confidence~hahas~

hmmm.. i onli tel him~ i'll try~

infact i tink i lost my confidence long long ago~

since when i also duno~..

there might be a double characteristic for mE~

one when outside socialing~ one when i'm alone n always feel unhappi and unfair abt tis world~

nid to see xin li yi sheng liao lar hahaha~

2006-08-24T03:08:00.000+08:00

I cant host dis pic last nite~ pekcek~ so i nv update bloG~ BLue J and mE~ took dis at airpoRt~actuali nv tot of taking de~ coz at first is help karen to takE( wan see her wan go her blog n sEE)

wake Up So So So EaRlY~

This is Me . Karen and the v. good in singing wan~ Mr Lee ShengJie~tat event is stupiD~ aunties sing Mr.Q~(juz becoz LSJ sing b4 at his concert)damn funni~ can luff till fall down tat kinD~ same level as miss swan wan haha~(for more details, visit karen bloG~)

i m damn bz with dance recently~ tat all i wan to say~

2006-08-23T02:10:00.000+08:00

i cant po other photos lehs~ i wana put me n bluE j de~ arGhs~

2006-08-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

been bz recently~ not with works~ but with dance~

i tink i deprove alot~ wads wrong with mE?

there's alot of stress~ i knw i've been tryin harD..

or i did not?

Her blog become my fav site recently~

it tels me abt wad she's doing and how is she getting along with him~

mayb is selfish lar~ i oways luff v.highly whenever i see her sad~

but today~ quite sour~ coz their chances of patching back is high again~

She lar~ dun wana let go~ like abit siao hor~

he's not my somebody also~

juz feel sour sia~ mayb whenever she blog she might be more sads lar~ but who cares~ i dun like her lor~

arghs~

ohya~ went back peicai~ onli can say~ the ppl
(i dont call em as teachers..) still sux as usual~

Everything is the samE~ i miss tat canteen~ i miss tat classroom~i miss tat staircasE~ infact i also miss the path we use to walk oways~ full full of good n bad memories~ running in the rain scene~ i nv forget~ still can tel u all is aug 4~ haha

soury~ sad~ discouraging day~

2006-08-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

yeah~ ytd was quite fun~

mit maggie they all go watch some dance semi-final~

(as well as jezz they all~)

Ocrew really rox~

hw i wish one day can be like them~

mayb 10 yrs ltr? haha

After tat we went for dinner~ alot ppl aR~ = =

coz all go see fireworks later de bah~we went n see too~ v.v. beautiful~

haha~ aft tat maggie they all went home~

i went to find jezz they all~ after we went mos~

there is jezz chris robbin qing hui alan n mE~

i saw xinwei there~ at the toileT~

actuali she's juz beside my table~

mayb too dark aR~ so long nv see her~hahas~

was lil bit tipsy~

still alright lar~wahahaahahaha~

2006-08-08T01:57:00.000+08:00

~~~ u wan see updates rite~ here it go~

05-08-06

i went to watch superband final lor~

i wan see Mc HotDog~

den watched ALL performance~ in the end ~

Mi Lu Bing Won~

HmMmMm.. no comments~

aft tat we go tamp eat mac~

chit chat til late den go home~ nthinelsE~

haha~ den ytd maggie n me

go town slack slack walk walk lor~

nthin alot~ juz nw go sing k~ quite high aR~

haha~ i duno y i keep tinkin of him~

dis seems abnormal~

i duno whether i is like or love him leh~

its something quite impossible lar~

recently reali mind empty~ expect him~

come back miss him~ this wan call love?

somebody tels me leh~ so lost now~

come back reali duno wad to do~

work also duno wad to wrk~

i reali duno wad i wan~ so lost in future~

not on the right tracks to do anything~arghs~

can i love him? =)

2006-08-05T04:57:00.000+08:00

argh~ finish watch AQMFS le~ finally~

hais~gt alot of comments on the show~

dreams~ if add ING will become dreaming~

once i tot i have dream~

in the end i realise i'm dreaming~

wad to do~

say wun giv up also gotta giv up for some spastic reasons~

To think back~ indeed nth actuali go smooth for mE~

haha dont tink le~ ltr eyes swollen again~

in the show~ richie~ say to himself~

he's someone without tommoro~

there will be ppl saying~

they will giv him every tommoorO~

i always think~ who will giv me my tommorroo?

hahas~spastic enough aR~

thru out the show cry cry crY~

now flu-ing~

today went frm practice~

tink i deprove alot~ muz train harder~

memory reali lousier den last time ~

now cant even remember 1 min of steps~

ARGH~ y i become lidaT??

Alreadi useless enough le can?

if u were to ask me~ wad m i capable oF~

i can tel u~ i cant ans it..

i also duno~ haha~

maybe i'll juz lidaT~

waste my life and my time off~

til i shall leave~=)

Above all is my summari of AQMFS~haha~

muz watch dong fang , pasta, xing ping guo liao~

alots to chases ars~
I'll present my new pic of my new hair col~

yeah~ rite man~ BLACK!

haha isnt nice? jezz say gold col niceeer lehs~

i tink actuali black suits me more~~~~~~~~~~

Everyday muz say : miss zoney in process~^^

2006-08-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

Presenting my SHOES~
no themes juz SHOES of my TyPe~
From the cheapest to the mos expensives~
i love em all~ wahaha~

See wad i mean~ gt cute cute de~ gt cool cool de~ gt sweet sweet de~ and some branded~ i like everything~ my SHOES SHOEs FAMILY^^

i dont tink dis is love~ but kinda of getting uSe le-s~ he-s everything-s chopped-s deep-s deep-s in-s my-s heart-s~ can-s also-s say-s everyone-s hearts-s~ everyone miss him, ~ i use to have dis in my friendster saying the pic of me n him *(He'S someOnE sErIouS aBt HiS LiFe)* tat was all i know tat time~ coz i wasnt tat familier to him~ i;m into deep deep posion of him rite noW~ he dRuGG-eD me sLiEnTly with his smile~ his cheerfulness~ his dancing powEr~ his AcTiOnS ~ hiS evEryThInG~ YES! AND I M MISSING HIM LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!!

2006-08-02T04:22:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha~ come back n blog~
but den hor gt to wake up at 09~
oh man~nw is like gg to 5~ so tirEdEdEdEd
tml gt to pei ivy go queenway~ like 3 day all go can = =
no choiceD~
btw btw~ i wana blog abt my shoes i bought today~

Hahaha~ dun ask me dis shoes hw much~
but den can say is the mos ex among i ever buy~
another 1 is cute cute de~

this one can say~ its $55 aft discount~

cute ehs~ wahah~

i stil miss-es him day by day~

he craps wid me last nite~

i told him abt S~ he says abt K~..

reali miss his voiCe~ and everyting~

oH~ miss Hsin too~ whenever i see New ErA~

today wore my new era~ alot ppl say nice~ and rare~

so happy~ make me miss him more~

coz he choose de mah~ every lil actions make me miss him more~

wahaa~ so high~ still dun wan slp~

pandaaaa tml~^^

miss u ~ zone-s

2006-07-25T13:47:00.000+08:00

Here to blog about my bday so call small small celebration~ Ivy, PeiSan , Mabel, Karen, Maggie, MeiJuan & BaoRong plus mE~ haha we went to pastAMania for dinnEr~ then they giv me my cakE~ PANDA CAKE! what the.... but nevermind ~ coz i say de mahs~ tots count~ anyway~ thx all for the day and love u gers~ and of coz the presents u all gave to mE~ wahaha~

Recently like onli gt happinesS? aRhUR~ there's alot of troubles too~ like i duno wad job should i be finding~ wad shld i have for my future~...juz wait n sEE? =)

2006-07-24T02:44:00.000+08:00

TODAY is my 19th birthday~ quite alot of ppl wish me aR~at least wun feel so empty~ haha juz tat still lack of someone to accompany me~haha feeling so lonely now.. nothing to do decide change blogskin~ boring rite~hahas~ normalli will be celebrating de~ dis yR? maybe sianz liao~dis entry is featuring my lastest baobei~ NEW ERA CAP

Dis belongs to karen~ i choosE dE~ hahas.. cool rite~actuali she like other but dont have her sizE~ so in the end~ i saw diS~ is nice on her head too~ @zone say nice too~ so she get dis wan~

This is mine~ haha~ fav.col~PURPLE~ most impt is @ZONE choose for me the~ he juz take n place on my heaD = =~ he did try alot on me~ but all think tat dis suits me the mos~including hSin? haha~

This is my v.first NeW ErA cAp~ juz hOpE tO cOllect more in the future~haha... lastly~

This is our beloved @zone and uS~ wE ToOk diS oUT oF loVe~haha..joking lar~ ltr all the ppl missing him kill me sia~but infact...i reali miss him~ he so bad lor.. ask all come back dun miss him~infact ,make me miss him more~ argh~S but wana thx him for everything~ he rox my triP~ and actuali i not v.close wid him de~ after all dis~ we move a lil closer~ =) sound dirtY hUH? tat the way i bitcH~whaha~ but frm the bottom of my hearT i muz say ~ i reali miss him like crazy~ ivy they all noe~i din deny~lolx

2006-07-22T12:53:00.000+08:00

Oh well~ dis entry is blogged after i come back from taiwan~

everything seems the same there~ different will be dis trip we gt additional new members joining uS~ peisan n mabel~

actuali there's nthin alot for me to miss ~

- the bez spagetti in the world ( dan zhi pei gen)

- the bez guo tie opps my hotel

- the california guy who try to tel us we look elegant?

- bo hao's auntie who said tat i slim down le~

- Sexy Diamond Sales Assi keep calling me gu niang? lolx

- the xi men ding ah yi~ who ask me to find her slibings in sG?

- Mr G.Ding , even sick also muz meet awhile~ hehe

- Mr A HSIN~who accompany us all the way to find a suitable

NewEra Cap

- Mr Xing Xing~ who accompany us till morning in some 24 hrs Cafe thou he's way too tireD~

last but no least ( i get it right)

- Mr @Zone ~ Who aCCompany us 4days out of 6days of our trip~

i miss him like craze~ he rOx~

i'm miss his roaring now!

His (k-s,S-s) funnn~

i miss his everything~

Thx to Him i get my nEw eRa CaP~

He ChoosE iT~

love tat cap alot~

Well~ the weather is fucking hot can~ up to 39 degrees~

i think its hootter den sg~ its humid~ but i reali reali miss the things above~ i miss shopping like crazi~ even with platform on my foot~

haha~ bought alot of stuffs~ i wana go again~

but muz filled with the things above again can?

2006-06-19T02:07:00.000+08:00

wootz~ soo soo soo soo long nv c0me n update le~

bet no one come here too~

haha~ hmm juz finish watchin the match between brazil n australia~

hmm think i too over le~ my mum gt a shock towards my shoutings~ haha~ now wrking at kovan gift a name~ tough job~ down with serious flu n fever.. they refused to let me take MC~ sometime i reali wonder~ Y i oways make myself wrk like a bull and get nthin reali back in the end~

at least a bull will get more more grasses~i'm juz like so tired recentli~

making myself so emotional.. watched meteor garden japan(finalli)

haha~ and now start watchin dong fang zhu li ye~ v. nice~ zhun is damn princey inside~ and i simply begin to love him~ haha oppS~ den wad happen to my ya lun ar~ ahha..some pics of wad's ggin on with me recently~

my puma brazil jacket~ love it~^^

my hair-bands~ hmmm all this for outing wan de hor~

2006-05-17T02:54:00.000+08:00

today went to eat the hongkong cafe located at kovan~
working at kovan today~
with karen and maggie~
it was nice the food~....
working at kovan is nt boring coz i can listen to 93.3~
other places can onli listen english station...
haha.. i heard dis song today.. it makes my day bit bit of moody~
Bu Zhi Dao Shen Me Shi Hou, Kai Shi Xi Huan Zhe li...........
hais.. memories all come out again..

dis is the one who bring back all the memories today~ y i dare to post dis pic up.. coz... we are not in furthur contacts.. and who cares if he can see dis or someone else will tel him dis~ it's ALL PAST~

and i'm recently disapointed on somebody~.. dont wana say who is tat nt bcoz i dun wan any quarral to occur~ is bcoz say le also no use~...nt first time le .. get used can liao.. wun say out n wun tel tat person dis..juz kp quiet and peace my life off~..

all my beloved stud-dy~ love em all.... wee~

2006-05-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

yeahyeah~ here to blog dis memorable day~
went pa tuo with karen together (shopping lah)
we went to watch (POSEIDON)
it was so thrilling lor~ with all the dead people scenes~
we dont even dare to stare at the screen~
infact we are peeping~
the movie tells me tat being alive is something happy
and life is full of unexpected ..
u never noe if u will be alive for the nxt 5 mins~
sadded~

den we saw yy at food court ltr..
she was with maybelyn~ and her grp of G-Force-ing friends~
after tt~ we went bugis for shopping~~~~
reali is SHOP lor..
bought quite alot of stuffs~

PIC 1 : wad i bought today~

PIC 2 : Close up of the small blingz~ i bought

PIC 3 : dis meal cost us $9.90 ~ erm quite nice lar~~~~

2006-05-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

the preious post was a v. messy wan..

coz i lazy go arrange lar = =

hahaha..daniel come sg on friday and we gt a recording~

but onli 8 ppl can get in.. so little lor..

haha.. den hor we gt a mini gathering on sat~

y i say mini is becoz alot ppl cant attend so its abit mini~

freda drop by to pass me the cao ge cD~ and the gift she bought for me in tw~ reali v. nice~ it bling my day up~ haha..

den we went to hotel and sit at the lobby court for drink n wait~

coZ we wana sit down so gotta go such expensive place norx..

1 sot of chivas is 15 bucks~ siao sia~

but abit nt happy coz someone din turn up~

as in i expect full attendance~ ( the 6 of us) ~

but she gt things last min~

plz dun ask me whether u can leave anot when u decided to leave even my ans is a NO!

den dun ask stupid qns liao rite~

send daniel off on sun ~ and rush to cao ge event~

he's CUTE~ and nice guy~

will like him more n more de ..

i'm happi dis few days ~ but someone juz wana spoil my mood~

duno y...

2006-05-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

hi all...found out tt the last entry was a sickenin wan~
so decided to blog wats goin on last few days~
happy memories finnally~

daniel with his golden melody (certiciate) at our gathering~

Daniel with [KASZ]Memebers~ outside Jack's Place

Daniel & Us at Airport~

Mr Cao.Ge @ KBox & Us

The Cocktail-s tat Cao.Ge make~

so is my report nice???hhah .. i get to see ah do too~

and catch me on thurs nite show bah~ wahahah~

2006-04-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

in fucking bad mood when i m blogging~

coz of tat job~ sick! discussing about the job

but den the more i say the more dulan i m~

keep on hitting the wall.. tears roll down~

wad the hELL man.. fucking dulan..

i may not be the most impt person in ur buiness but still somone

who is under ur hand wishing u will giv me wad i m suppose to do..

not empty words! if u are not sincere enough to hire me..

den wad for i wrk for u like a bull? its something i tink so lowly and yet i am alreadi pushin my head low to accpet..now i noe i m making a fool out of myself~ if its not tat i m short of cash and under the pressure of my parents.. i wun wan to continue.. anyway tat boss of ivy is giving a 7 days holiday~WHOAH.. if i gt $$ i can go travel liao sia..and not scare come back i no job~ but wad i wan now is WORK! alot alot alot of wrks..

but i onli say i wan 2 days off per week and now she's onli giving me 2 days of wrk~ hey man nt sincere and unconfidence of my performance den dun even hired me! but i am quite satified with wad i do for the past

1.2.3.4.5.6 DAYS! i told myself i muz at least wrk 9 months now i dun even come acrcoss 9 DAYS.. shit man..

angry till i feel like calling the so-call boss of my and scold her!!!

2006-04-04T17:28:00.000+08:00

boooooyiiii~ haha ~
i;m back for blogging~
have been wrking at ivy,maggie wrking place for apr 1st and 2nd
v.v.v.v.tired~ cant say dun like the job~ in fact maggie v. zhao gu me~
but say real de.. i dun like to compare~ (there;s another new comer too)
sometime i reali miss the days wrkin in gift a name~ there laughter and tears~to think i can wrk til cry.. til tears drop now onto the beads~
mayb even if damn bz.. my tears also wun drop into ice creams..
coz when i m doing the sereving my mind was stirring wid knnccbnb..
!@#$%^&* hahas~ my pattern lor~

Monday 3rD April 2006

we went~ jB!!!! hahas~ meeting yuki and her sis frm kL~
passing them cDs hehe..
den SHOPPING~ bought some stuffs~ hahas..
come back we go TPY sing KTV~ v.high~
hahas but also v.tired~

i wana go TAIWAN~ i miss u all so much~
oh ya and jezz bought my darling to shanghai..
i'll miss my darling too.. hahas~

PIC : b4 jB-inG

2006-03-30T02:57:00.000+08:00

a boring year ahead~
realli.. coz i m wasting my life off..
i find nthing reali interest me now ..
i've been slping more den 12hrs perday now..
coz i reali duno wad to do..
beside slp still slp..
can i slp and never wake up?
hmm.. i never reali have anything happening recently..
lolx~

2006-03-27T14:04:00.000+08:00

woke up quite earli today as i slept at 2plus last nite..

one of the earliest sleep i had for the last few months..

i slowly discover y i cant slp at nite.. coz i'm lack of security

i'm always smiling when i outside .. and when i come home.. i change to a different person...is dis normall to everyone out there?

saw xiao zhong on pi li jiao wa~ suddenly discover tat..

the 3 who say wana lend me e zuo ju wan .. totally no news~

i shall nt name them out~= = den suddenly i tink..

someone also wana say wana buy kim sam soon show and watch together sia.. til the show end liao also no news..

shall not take anyone word seriously next time..

should depend on myself.. wth lor..

i'm in v.bad mood today..

coz i oways feel kena cheated..

and dont feel sorri or say sorri..

i hate the feeling of being sorried...

no matter in ..

relationship

friendship

family..

what else i have?

i realli dont know......

2006-03-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

weee........

Happy Birthday to Chris~

Happy 20th Anniversary to my mUm and Dad~

Wana Introduce a v.nice singer.. Gary Cao Ge..

He has a song "Super Woman" from an old artist i think

v.nice... ^^

went Mos last nite.. quite fun ?

alot of ppl sia.. the dancefloor was soo packed = =

Realli hope Chris enjoyed tat nite~ cheers~

2006-03-24T08:15:00.000+08:00

You Are a Total Player!

Congratulations, when it comes to the game of love, you're a pro.
Not only are you an expert player, you are a highly evolved one.
For you, dating is like a game of chess - with a much happier ending.
And you adeptly alter your moves, depending on who's in the game.

I swear i did tis test wholeheartedly.. but y turn out lidat

You Were Pretty Average This Year

You Were 45% Naughty, 55% Nice

You tried to be a good girl this year...
But as you know, being good isn't that fun!
If you're extra sweet, you may have enough time to get on that nice list.

hmmm...eh.. dis is quite turre~~~ =)

Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman

Inside you've got the passion and ideals of a teenager
And your intensity for life is what attracts most of the men you date
You also like to party - and quite often you're the life of the party
You've brought the best of your younger years with you... at least most of the time.

i like dis ans.. coz i admit i m in dis stage~=)

2006-03-24T08:09:00.000+08:00

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.
And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.
Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.
And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

hmmmmmm= =.. not sure if its real hahas

2006-03-24T02:50:00.000+08:00

Boo..i come n blog liao..haha..

abit crazi..recently the slping time is iregular and messy.. my life is oways lidat anyway = = den hor.. someone bluff me say wana mit in the end no mit.. and same time

SORRY! i hate to listen sorri.. anyway .. ppl who noe me get it..so tired.. went tampines isetan to buy dis (as shown on pic, onli de the long n red wan is buy de.. the rest are samples of other product... wana do advertisement for em.. lolx)

its clarins instant light.. i use vochers to buy de.. arbo where gt $$$ to buy leh..haha..huan zhu gege today end liao..so sad...but happy ending is oways the best..but it washes alot alot of my tears..ok.. i stop here.. continue to cry = =

2006-03-23T01:16:00.000+08:00

hmm.. change my blogskin liao..
hweh..choose alot of design sia..
den hor.. alot duno y cant click de..
!@#$%^&*
Kfans.. Biru have been askin me ..
Why are we always absent recently..
cover alot for u all liao le ..
hais..
SuperBand is on the coming sat..
so do angela events..din ask u gurls..
coz i noe u all will be goin to see niunai
den coming over for angela..
i cant anyone coz i discover..
friends around me like NIUNAI= =
Sat is a v.big day sia..
Chris birthday.. and my parents wedding anniversary..
haha.. me shld be bz or slacking onli..
no more..
anyway.. dosent matter..
i am someone not impt in anyone's life..=)

2006-03-10T05:56:00.000+08:00

world of helpless..
feeling depressed again recently..
hais.. dun wish to say the reason...
coz i duno who are the ones who is
viewing tis blogger...
tired to continue any more other things..
life is getting dull..
hw come i can still smile and act as nth happen?

von bday was on 070306~
her chalet was a nice wan~
wid alot of stylish ppl ard..
and a big grp of sec sch mates ard..
all have change so so much~
even tat guy =.=
and something sad will be chris nv come ..
tot tat the six of us will gatherin together~

went out wid maggie to suntec~
and bought my nano black~
hehe.. quite happy lar..
thou i gt dis in hand..
but somehow~i felt something lost...

kiss u goodbye~

2006-03-02T03:53:00.000+08:00

hihi.. come n update again le..
thinkin at goddess of tears keep come n find me ar..
keep crying watching dos soap drama = =...
haha.. went jb wid maggie n ivy today..
quite not bad shopping trip...
but still okay lor..
quite tired..

duno wad to say ..
oh ya~!
tat stupid singnet server make me cant go aio = =
damn fuck leh.. onli singnet user = =
sianz...

to: /.,./ : dun bad mood liao.. smile =)

2006-02-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

today finish watchin [My lovely sam soon]
hais... feel abit sad coz i dono nxt sat goona do wad..
goin to find new job again le.. taka tat job shld counted as no more liao le lor.. coz of some unreasonable reasons.. sick sia..
hope takashimaya will collaspe soon... !@#$%^&*
hais.. den duno wana wrk wad also.. so sianz...
been staring into the air for mins..
wondering wat shld i do in the future...sobz..

2006-02-24T02:14:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. i pasted a tagbroad liao le..
at first dont reali wana do so.. coz sure gt ppl nt happy n wana scold me!
but i reali wish to see who are the one who is watchin out dis blog..
arbo i dontnoe.. wat the point for me to do dis blog..
but of coz sure gt ppl who dont like me wana scold me de lar..
cant prevent de = =.. v. stress ar..
hais.. trying to see if i can post a pic here..
dis is the guy i like frm [My Name Is Kim Sam Soon]
xuan bin des-si haha ..he's way too cute..
hmmm.. i've been missing a place recently..(all along strongly)
hw i wish i gt a chance to go back again now~!

2006-02-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

la er la er la..
back for a blog again..
hmm.. century sq de promotion is finally over..
happy working with angel & erm [jazz?]..
anyway it;s over.. so juz hope tat dis coming week can let me rest while..
coz i feel damn stress n tired.. dealing over those fussy customers..
esp today.. alot = =.. thou quite slack lor..
the delivery mans came quite earli..8plus.. so we packed everything fast and went TM awhile
with serene n her husband..but den hor alot of shops close liao lor..nth to say = =''
watch abit of [e zuo ju zhi wen] final epsiode preview.. i reali wana watch lar..~~~ arhg
and my book is finally arrive at kino.. able to collect anytime..
so erm.. meeting juu tml lor..

been tinkin alot recently.. missing alot of things..
i miss the year 2002 2003
when i was a still a sch ger.. used to chase alot of artists period..
can skip sch can que for long hrs.. hmm.. they are memories of gd n bad times..
i make alot of friends thru dis and i lost contact wid some of em liao le..
or can say is seldom contact.. the onli few i still contacting wid is same lor..ivy they all..
no diff = = .. cant believe i actuali noe ivy for so mani yrs liao..
alot ppl too.. but also gt bad times when we quarrel over small little things n so ever..
frm 15 - 19 ..m i counted growing up mentally? or i still remaining the same?
i wish i have nv grown up.. realli big failure..
juz now watch drama.. preview of [z zuo ju zhi wen] and hana yori dango eps 5..
i dont wan to see hana yori online.. wana buy VCD.. dad say after my hse here have liao den buy = =

bwG.. wait bah..wait lor.. wad can i say..

2006-02-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. siao liao..
been wrking continuesly..
v.sianz n tired...
den nthin alot to do..
went to find mao mao jackets with anna during dinner breaks..
a few piece lar.. but all damn ex..
saw a boots, a bag i like.. but quite ex
hais.. alot of things i like neh in fareast...
but den hor no $$ to buy hais..
damn sad...
i wan another shopping spree~~~~~ mayb 100yrs later..

2006-02-13T03:25:00.000+08:00

hais.. been nt updating recently..
nah.. anyway no ppl will read de lar..
hmm.. been working at century sq counter..
damn bz.. but also good lor.. coz can stop remembering things..
help a guy do order delivery on fri.. hmm his gf shld have receive le lar..
v.sweet guy.. thou he still gt sms me ..etc...
v.day is round the corner..so alot of guys.. keep asking wad their gf will like..
for goodness sake.. how will i noe? i m nt ur gf lor..
ask me also no use lor.. even a uncle also ask me wat his wife will like.. = ='''
so scary.. gonna work at taka on v.day itself..
damn sianz.. if i noe earlier i will reject it sia..
rather hide at home.. coz i hate tat day..
i doubt anyone gt a worser experience den me liao..

hmm.. hav-ing terrible headache recently.. lolx..
nv stop since i come back frm tw till now..
thinking if its brain cancer.. (anyhw think de )
lac of slp .. lac of love.. lac of frens.. lac of everything..
shld die yi die suan liao.. rite?
put a full-stop to everything..

2006-02-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

today is a fucking tiring day..
went isetan orchard to work..
VERY BORING AR!!!!
no ppl wan lor.. sianz till i stand also wana slp..
haiz.. dont know leh..v.sad during work..
i dont reali wana work.. dont y..
so sad....

2006-02-05T06:03:00.000+08:00

hehe i've been blogging late nite nite dis few days..
due to no comp to use freely..
den juz now busy watchin [wo jiao jin san shun]
v.funny n nice drama lor..
but 1 week can onli watch 2esp..
hmm.. haha..its v.nice..
saying abt a fat,old and unwanted woman
[juz like me] !!! lolx..
i not as fortunate coz she found a v.cute guy in the show...

haha..hmm.. gonna send letter on mon to yalun~~~
so happy..
thx alot to my dis fren..
gotta slp soon...
its 6am in the morning...

quote for today :

you look attractive when you dont know how attractive u are

2006-02-05T01:31:00.000+08:00

been working hard to blog dis few days ..
coz flu is reali damn serious and keep staying at hm..
actuali at hm also nthin bad.. coz can listen to songs..
comp was down for 1 week le..
and i m tryin hard to tolerate tat fucking bro nosenese
coz i nid to use his comp..
so day time i reali slp well( coz gt eat medicine..)
den play comp at late nites..
chatted wid alot ppl coz USA gt different timming with us..
ABCs sound soo cool ~ haha..

sometime when ppl are in love liao..
no matter hw a fren say say say also no use de..
now i believe dis.. coz i been thru..
i stop saying liao..

from now on i will mind my owe buiness..
and shut the fuck up..:)

i m reali different frm last time..
coz i oways tot speak rite frm my mind shld be betta..
but alot ppl say y i so guai lan when iwas speaking frm my mind off..
hais.. shld i change or noT?

2006-02-03T03:21:00.000+08:00

hello.. today i woke up at 10.30.. suprise rite?
haha .. no lor..
my mum ask me wake up eat bee hoon den eat medicine..
den i went back to slp for awhile..
i was suppose to wake up at 1..
bt den hor i woke up at 2.30 = =
in the end meet maggie late..
at abt 5 den i reach bugis.. went to makan..
den walk walk slack slack..
we went arcade coz maggie wana play the basketball game..
but the basketball thingy was moved away..
so she play time cris ( gun shooting game)
den while she was playing.. as usual..
i will wait n watch beside her lor..
den a guy walk up to me.. q
uite cute sia..
but he ask me a qns..
i cant hear den i ans no..
he say : mei you over 16 bu ke yi jing lai..
i reply : wo 18 lor!!! b
y showing him my ic...
den he say sorri sorri..
u look too cute lar..
knn..~~~ i dun look above 16 meh..
i goin to be 19 liao lor~~~
sianza alot of @#$%^&* in my mind..
den after tat we went suntec = = find ivy..
their bravissmo freezer spoil.. onli few ice cream is available..
so ke lian..after taat we wana go back hg mall for dinner lor..
its abt 9 we reach hg mall.. alot of shops like wana close liao..
eat finish dinner den i come hm le lor..so sianz

i m wasting my life off.. rite? =)

2006-02-02T11:38:00.000+08:00

too sick liao.. headache come every illness attack together..
i'm goin to work on valentines' day coz mayb gt no one to date me ar..
so i got a date with my previous job..i had a damn damn lousy wan last yr..
tat makes me feel so lousy till i slap myself everytime i tot of it..
all i can say is i'll nv spend a 3 ppl valentines'day anymore..
it sucks~ juz hope to work peacefully tat day...
hmm.. i always thot i got a small crush on dis guy..
but till now i discovered tat i was actuali no reali interested in him..
onli a normal and best fren... fated bah...
anyway..shld remain as myself till i meet someone special.. lolx

or maybe i m d angel of loneliness?

2006-02-01T03:13:00.000+08:00

haiz.. went out wid maggie today..
hmm.. den anyhow walk walk ard lor..
went kino to see books..
brouse J-STAR mag.. kido is reali good looking wid the roses..
but when i saw liyang..
i tink he look old liao sia.. but nvm lar..
thou i keep say him hsiao ah pek.. but he's still a hot fave in my heart..
haha.. saw linda's book.. feel like buying.. but i muz REN!!! anyone wana buy giv me.. haha..hais..i told karen dis..when someone feels sad. he/she will act more crazi in front of others.. den go find ivy.. den go eat.. i reali v. sick today.. keep sneeze .. juz nw gt blood sommore sia ..haiz.. mayb my days are near.. hmm.. dis few days keep slpless .. duno y..
everymorning about 8plus.. i will remember once i talk to dis guy on phone for 8hrs 33mins..
but tat was the past liao.. so when i recall.. i was tinkin hw can i crap for so long sia..
and and and..ivy saw guohao and his gf today wor.. they go n buy ice cream frm her..
haha .. well.. tat ALL past~!

did i change?did i learn a lesson?

2006-01-31T07:01:00.000+08:00

i'm fuckin tired now.. but y cant i slp.. = =
still gt to mit maggie at 4 leh..
dying soon sia.. keep on slpless..
falling sick le.. sore throat, flu..
new yr holidays are goona finish..thou CNY gt 15 days..
y cant we have 15days of holiday? lolx..
tat cool man.. haha

i wana slp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006?

2006-01-30T04:47:00.000+08:00

its not a new beginning for me when i discovered tat my comp actuali spoilt when i nid it the moz.. i think i have get use to cry, luff, sing, game wid my comp too much le.. til i tink i cant actuali live wid out it.. now gotta use my bro de.. muz wait til he's slping den i can use..
bWg.. haiz.. i been not good since 2006 start.. dreams shattered due to family probs..
sorry my dearest sis ..i let u down.. but out of no other way.. i muz wrk to help dis family..
wAtch [I not stupid Too] .. i like the movie.. coz it swept my tears and my $$ = =

crying seems the onli thing i can do now ..
i m in a mess of myself..
forcing myself to smile even i was really down..
i did not tel anyone.. coz i reali feel a failure inside my heart...
i din tel ivy, maggie, karen.. not even my darling sista..

i felt so useless of me..wad shld i do to make myself happier?
shld go wrk liao.. STOP UR DREAM when u are not slping..
i m reali trying to forget wat big big dream i have in my mind..
by making myself crazy.. luff non stop.. craps..

but at the end of the day.. tears still swept by.. when is dis so?
i suffering slpless nite.. i making hell out of myself..

sometime, we say.. when things dont belong to you .. juz let go..
but we haven even try to reach it.. we gootta giv up?

ya i can say dis.. but when theres' too mani reasons..
u got no choice.. but resign to fate...

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